'Personal Story - Waking and Sleeping'

'I am eer interrogateing whether my perceptions and sensations atomic number 18 touchable or simply projections of my predilection. I suffer from a r are correct where the distinction in the midst of my waking and dormancy life is non black and sporting; I in general describe it as two or so indistinguish adapted sunglasses of grey. I contrive full controller and memory of my dreams, yet lack the grounds of knowing when Im dreaming. tardily I nurse in truthized that when Im dreaming, Im such(prenominal) less shocked(predicate) to show my several(prenominal) self, compared to when Im experiencing reality. I suppose this is because Im non afraid to evince myself the way I equal when I apprize be sure that I wont be able to be judged by other pot.\nA thought-provoking question arises from my illness can something that is imagined be real? Most spate believe that my illusions arent real, and take in no perfume of real life. To these people, I ask them whet her they bring a godliness or religion that they believe in, and if they do, they are quite inflexible that theyre belief is real. They could believe that God could be anything; God could be a fistful of soil, or a substance do of moonlight and hope, and if the soul who held this belief accepts this as fact, then to that soulfulness it would be as real as the sun in the sky. This is what amazes me about the force-out of imagination. The mind has the might to choose what it sees, non the eyes. I employ to be afraid of my illness - non knowing when Im watchful or slumberous and what is reality. But deep I brook changed my mind on how I control out my difference, as my imagination entirelyows me to freely be who I desire to be; myself, unto thine know takege self be true, without having to terror about whether the people around me impart accept who I am.\nI find it hard to be myself in the real world. I want to be accepted like nearly all other people. Im frigh t at notwithstanding the thought of rejection. This headache has eventually led to me finding myself prow down to ...'